a good day today to surface these thoughts !!

Past one week had been a week full of self realizations for me…. be it on personal relationships or about my work….

perhaps i learn it yet again… never hold on or run after people..never ever…..respect , love and value yourself always..above and beyond everything….know your worth¬† !!! if they are meant to be in your life…they will !!!

it has been a terrific terrific working time …… shooting a lot..sometimes non stop….exhausting and overwhelming yet fun.. !

perhaps they say it right ” hard work pays off ” …. slogged my ass for months together only to get this chance of doing my own show while i still intern with the TV channel i work with !! fabulous isnt it?

lessons learnt …. outgrowing yesterday’s mistakes and failures ….. letting to of whatever was holding me down…. letting go of negative people …. emotions and thoughts….. taking chances….meeting new people…opening up to new possiblities and above all ….. loving myself more !!!

it is true that life will not always be good to you…but neither does it always give you lemons ….. you have to make the best of everything and anything that comes your way…. never loose sight of your goals …never let go of your dreams… and yes ofcourse dare to dream !!!

i am living my dreams…. and if i can….you can too !!!

with love ………………………

journaling a saturday in MAY

its been quite sometime that i have worked and trained with this news broadcaster back here in India .

nice workplace , good people to be around with and above all lots of Learning ! Although i wasnt really content with what i was doing and had done until now,i still had hopes to make my place …rather first find my place in this org!

, having joined a music show and getting the full liberty to work as a producer ; now i somehow find that contentment , its there yet its small …. maybe cornered somewhere inside but still making its presence felt… . although i am not too experienced with this work that i can decide if this is what i want !! but so far now it seems it will work me well …

going out there …shooting concerts…scripting…conceptualizing shows…working on plans …editing …. meeting people…travelling…. i think im getting everything i wanted …ofcourse except sleep and rest !! something i have been depraved of since a month now and i have no idea how i am coping up with it , but here i am…still alive !!

it was more of a burden until now , to have to work for a team and in an environment i disliked , spending¬† hours and hours working on what i could not even relate myself with …. it was sad !!

Now…… im always on my toes , i work non stop … i get exhausted and sometimes alone…sometimes i fear if i can do it at all ? and othertimes i doubt if i would like it so? and sometimes i just become laidback…

i cannot say how this will be… but for the time being its going good … its going fine…

i think music has been a part of my life always… and now that i get a chance to associate with even better …. i think i am not just lucky but very happy too….

maybe all the hardwork and dedication pays off….maybe this will turn into what i want it to be….perhaps this will be promising !