a waterfall of thoughts

“La vie comme il faut “is what I have been saying to myself for some time now. i have given up everything i do not want to do or found myself ill fitted for and finally unleashed what has been lying dormant inside of me, for what seems to be aeons. For some people what i am doing is a “faux pas” – and i have never understood why someone with an MBA cannot be into journalism or shift to it. But life and times have now taught me to take counsel of others, but always follow my own heart and finally I am doing what I have always wanted to do.  I’ve never really lived away from my family for too long although I’m very independent and prefer to do things on my own. But living alone has brought me an extra strength and confidence, and specially living in a city like Delhi, it is brave isn’t it? I’ve been doing a lot of exploring the city alone and I’m falling in love with it, right from its bustling local markets heavily laden with all kinds of beautiful nothings, its gargantuan malls and shopping centres, to its awe-inspiring monuments – the city has just so much to offer. The people are surely crazy , they sound frustrated and angry most of the time , putting up a fracas on almost anything , a kind of madness I am not much used to and so far not afraid of. However with all its good and bad things, I’ve come to liking this place and the new phase i am going through, c’est joie de vivre!! Isn’t it? There are times in life when you need to travel alone to discover the “YOU” inside you and I’m glad I got my chance. Lao Tzu once said “a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step “I’ve taken mine, let’s see how it unfolds from here and now.

MUSIC -look what it did to me !!

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its five minutes to 12, midnight here in India , a hot shower was all i could do to relax myself of the day’s fatigue and there came to me this beautiful sound almost making me imagine a long walk into the woods with my hands in yours , warm and comfortable in your presence,the beautiful glistening gold of the setting sun shining on our faces making them more beautiful than the fairies and gods

not that i did not have something better to do at this odd time that i end up feeding some rich classical music to my noise tired ears , i end up on this track by kitaro- theme of ROMEO and JULIET , what a beauty is it?? i think i needed something like this for so long to let out this loneliness that was haunting me all this time , yes i definitely remember to miss you,not forget you , your touch , your smile , your look , your unsaid words of love and care,the feelings or thoughts you’d never dare reveal only wanting me to understand them within my heart,it all it lies within of me , not in the deepest recesses where i cannot catapult them from but in the center most of my heart and mind , you are and will always be there.

how this beautiful music was meant to be played and that too by me to remind me of you , to bring a little tear or two for what should have been , could have been, to again lighten up the flame  that seemed to be dying somewhere ,somehow , our loved ones never really stop loving us for our mistakes do they?mistakes that should not even counted as ones??

i know we were strong , we were one only separated by the tide of time , the same tide us will bring us on the same shores again , where our eyes shall meet , our souls re-unite and our love rekindled… i shall wait that  ..for now i lay content and pray , what we have only grows much stronger as time passes us by .

sometimes things are just lined up  , and then it strikes you omg is that the answer i was looking for /?? is that the thing i was missing on ?? life is not weird , its just always revolving around you , nudging you , giving you your answers just open yourself to that sound !!

with so much love to YOU and all :)

A new city and Me

i sleep myself off everyday with a prayer to god for all the great things , friends , experiences and somehow new discoveries that i am everyday making within of me and to the fact that how much i miss my family now that i am living on my own in a completely new city and everyday i wake myself up to the reality , not so lonely but yes confident enough to face the day with even bigger energy than yesterday.

it’s amazing how strong living alone , doing your things on your own , managing food , stay etc can make you. i havent really surprised myself that i can do so much on my own but yeah i do have surprised a lot of people that had pre conceived notions of me , that i can and i do so much on my own … no am not a rich spoilt brat !!! :D ..

i dont know how would i put this up , but yeah in a way i love this new space , new people and of course the idea of being so independent and it is definitely bringing an inner inspiration along with a deeper understanding of my own self and the work i am doing is definitely like so positively the other side of me that was just waiting to be unleashed .. oh n staying alone is another brave endeavor that i have taken up lol !!

 

love to all <3

 

 

Synchronicity

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i don’t want to put up some definition type explanation to what is synchronicity rather il share what i understand,in most simple and layman’s word that is simply attracting coincidences , events , people etc that directly or indirectly contribute to attainment of one’s desires as well they can be sometimes like a premonition or warning to something that’s coming up fast with which you either catch up or pack bags n take another way ( run away ) lol !! 

synchronicity happen to each an every one of us and they are often ignored by i’d say 95 percent people as mere coincidences ..um mm actually meaningless coincidences but the truth is that nothing !! yes NOTHING  happens without a reason  , that stranger you ran into a coffee bar , that conversation you just overheard or a free advice you got from an absolute stranger is not just some shitty coincidence , it was you who attracted it and of course for some reason!

the best way to keep track of these happenings is having your own sync journal , record the events because we tend to forget them fighting the daily 100 tensions in our lives , once you start noting them down you will start realizing they have a meaning , a pattern maybe as well so pay attention to the signs and yes note it down , go through them at the end of the day and try to figure out why it happened for you and dont forget to appreciate these incidents , the more you appreciate n give out positive vibes , the more you attract positive and meaningful synchro’s in your life that can really give you a lot of guidance too!! 

 

love to all :)

the historian – elizabeth kostova

amazingly thrilling vampire hunt story that takes you throughout Europe , well bound and great story telling. i could never give up reading this one its so thrilling and being a lover of history myself i could not stop myself researching more on drakulya !! elizabeth has a particular style of writing and the book clearly gives evidence to that , shes put out her life story in a such a way that it becomes more and more interesting page after page and indeed more mysterious. for those who have an interest in the occult , vampires , history etc this book will just keep you enthralled throughout.

its definitely a worth reading specifically for those who muse the paranormal..

 

have fun reading :D

 

yet another situation where i got my divine answers

some of the most amazing things happen in life for which you can never have an explanation , there is however always a knowing and it is that knowing which you need to tap into. with my father’s surgery due and a sleepless night worrying about how everything would turn out to be , i slept off with these in mind and yes i got my answers while sleeping , i dont know how and why and where and when things happen , but i have often tested it and i cannot deny the fact that answers come from subconscious mind .. and no wonder it turned out the same :)

its amazing isnt it!!!

DONT SLEEP ON IT

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so here i am making yet another post on meditations n stuff… but this time i have some interesting insights to share , like i had told earlier i am literally facing some real hard times since past god knows how many months and great thing is that its got even more tough now !!! well anyway…thats life… so all this time , i realized i have grown into an intuitive person and moreover i have had a lot of dreaming which has indeed brought me answers to so many things i really needed guidance upon.

i initially doubted if those dreams indeed mean anything ever but so many incidences have happened with me and people near me that has proven to me the dreams are not wrong and they mean a lot ,if you remember and pay attention you’ll find answers there in them.

okay so now going fast forward , i have once again started to practice guided meditations , they initially never worked for me because id either sleep on them or i have a thought rush  that would ultimately leave me overwhelmed and unable to focus on the meditation. so gradually with diligence and patience and practice of course i have brought myself to this point where i can do guided meditations with ease and in fact benefit with. so while one of such sessions infact some of them to put it better , i realized when i SLEPT myself ON these meditations i either did not have any dreams or had dreams that were not so insightful and somehow i realized that sleeping myself on these meditations gives my mind something to process overnight , something to absorb and bother about therefore no matter what questions or problems il feed to it for obtaining answers to its not going to be of any help…

so for all those who know and believe in the magic of dreams and who sleep yourself on the guided meditations, its an advice not to do so specially on days when you’re seeking your answers, like i said , you are giving your brain something to process across the night and therefore it will focus on those affirmations / meditation and not your query !!!

cheers :)